Who we are and where we come from has a huge impact on how we experience the world. I live with white privilege - this unreservedly impacts the way I view things. But I also have Māori whakapapa, which has also shaped how I walk through the world, and how I perceive things.
I don't look super Māori, but it's still
an important part of who I am.
More recently I read another article which also spoke to how I was feeling. I posted a link to this article on my Facebook wall. I decided not to finish writing this blog post - I didn't think I needed to given the other fantastic discourse already out there. But people were still confused by this article. And there was another thing - I don't agree with the title of the article.
So I'm finishing my post. It will be rough, sorry. Being at Level 4 I do not have much time to myself nor regular access to our home computer (which is where I write). And my partner's health has been not great. After many days of seizures every day, he ended up in hospital, and while he's home now and doing better, it's still been a tough week.
I have read The Spinoff article by Leonie Hayden and yes, I agree that Lorde did her absolute best to make sure everything was tika in the production of this album.
This is not my issue.
I have no issue with Pākehā learning or speaking te reo Māori. Our youngest daughter is in a bilingual English/Māori class at school. She's blonde with blue eyes and her whakapapa is predominantly Pākehā. She has peers in her class with no Māori whakapapa, peers with parents who are tau iwi. What I love about that is that it shows how valued both te reo and te ao Māori are by so many New Zealanders. I see our daughter thriving in this environment in a way that she did not thrive in mainstream education. I am so grateful that she has this opportunity, and while whakapapa is an important part of her learning, no matter where you whakapapa to, you are welcome in her class.
This is how I view te reo. It is a beloved national language. A taonga to be shared.
But being able to learn te reo is a privilege.
My relationship with te reo has been tricky. I've always been drawn to it. Not just because of seeing the power of it in karanga and waiata on the Marae, but because it just resonates with who I am. I did kapahaka around intermediate age - it was compulsory. At that time I went to a school which had a strong Māori kaupapa. For our school trip we stayed at different Marae around Northland and learned about local history. I absolutely loved it. But when I tried to learn te reo at High School I was bullied for it and even told 'it is not for you' by one of the kaiako**. So I did not continue learning at school.
Kawhia Marae - where I did my noho Marae with Unitec
and had the privilege of leading the waiata onto the Marae.